I'm super tire today, it seems like I will nv finish my work, I'm overloaded but no one help me at all. Its getting more and more. Maybe is becos my colleague love to do nothing but throw all her work to me. Nvm I will ren... see when my volcano will erupt.

Today while having lunch with my colleagues, one of them mention tt when gal turn nasty and she dun love the guy anymore, she wont think twice bout holdin on to the relationship when a third party comes in. She will juz walked off without having a second thought unlike guy. For guys, he will still have the feeling for his gf when a third party come along and the chances of him walking off is very small. Izzit true??? I seriously dun agree with my colleague, if guys are really tt good then there wont be heartbroken gals walking on the street :P

Chinese New yr is coming which means I'm having holiday soon. I'm so happy, dun have to go bac to company for tt few days, get to eat and enjoy as well as income too( Ang Pow). Actually it's better not to get married cos every cny can get extra income if married liao then got to give ppl income. Money juz fly off without me buying anything... how can...

I'm so tire, my eye lids cant even open liao, tomolo still got to get up early... argghhh I miss my sch days.

17.01.06: Special day but I fall sick on this day. Its our three yr anniversary. I'm so disappointed, all the plan tt we planned to do on this day was cancelled and I dun think we have time for our special dinner as chinese new yr is coming. I dun think I have the mood to celebrate it after receiving a call not meant for me. Somehow or rather I'm quite disappointed with this relationship and the word "eternity" seems very far away. Izzit becos we have been together for too long till we are comfortable and use to having each other company rather than really deeply in love.

Those TV drama really misled us into thinking every love is prefect, sometimes the love I seek for is too prefect till my partner cannot take it. I dun deny the fact tt i'm very demanding towards love cos wat i look for is a lifelong partner, I did set a very high standard for him to reach. Is he reachable, I seriously dunno.

Sitting in the living room in the middle of the nite, thinking wat he done for me so far, actually it was really alot. If i'm a man and he is the woman, will I did the things he do for me.....

I'm feel touch for the things he done for me and tt why I'm still holding on hoping miracle would happen and our relationship will improve. He is the kinda guy whom every gal wish to have due to his gentle side of his character not to mention his bad temper. I'm still learning how to control myself and walk away when things turn nasty between us. The word "sorry" is seldom heard from his mouth. Whenever I go shopping, he will always get me the things I like regardless of the price, this is the reason why I always have saving and he always wipe out his saving. 2 yr ago, I have some problem getting along with my mom, I refuse to use her money for my sch fee and living allowance. I took up tuitions to support myself. Without thinking twice he use his scholarship to pay for my sch fee and transfer another lump sum of money into my account for my living expenses, he oso insist tt I give up all my tuition. The sum add up to more than 10k when he himself is only a student too. He took up 2 tuitions on top of his hectic sch work. Whenever I'm sick, he will take urgent leave if he is having his holiday attachment or skip his lectures to be my side and will always be by my side whenever I donate money to the doc. Never once he left me alone when i'm sick. There are alot of things tt he wish to own at the age of 23, but he all give up for the sake of me. He always gimme the best but yet I still dunno how to appreciate him(cos he hurt me too). Thanks to him I have my driving license, w/o him to sponsor me 3/4 of the fee, I dun think I will have the license at all. He signed me all for the sch lesson cos he think is the best for me. Initially I wanna go for private instructor as I can really save alot.

I hate him and I love him too... Wat my future going to be like... I juz hope for the best. My stand has chg, he train me to be a stronger person, he show me wat is hurt and love.
Three yrs together, I might unconciously hurt him too. In terms of love, he seriously is a guy who seldom express it, but I'm the kinda gal who love sweet talk. He is born a leader and I'm born a dreamer seeking for true love... He stand out in every occasion and bring laughter to the ppl surround him, I'm the timid mice tt let ppl bring the laughter around me. He love having party and having alot of ppl to surround him, he scare os lonliness but I'm the kinda gal who love peace and quiet moments with the person I love. Its already a miracle tt we can be together for three yrs regardless of our differences. Fate brought us together, I juz hope the love story will go on and on ...

p/s: I'm human, I noe wat u done for me, sometimes I choose to keep quiet. I always believe tt action speaks louder than words. I will forget bout the past and look forward to the future, gimme some times.... I love u... Happy Three yr Anniversay... Aiden I will treat u the dinner instead after cny cos I spoilt the day.

22/01/06: Life Sux, got to clean up the whole hse, cant I have a break on weekend afterall I work so hard on weekdays like crazy. Its juz cny, it's the same as any other day. I'm still having flu, I'm still sick. Can I be EXCUSE?

Stuck at home today doing nothing, actually I got alot of things pending to do like fixing the computer table which i bought from Ikea yest. The table weight 19kg, maybe I should wait for my mom to be free then we can fix together. I wan to do pedicure but super lazy to move my butt to jp, I can oso do it at suntec city after my work. Maybe tomlo... maybe.. haha CNY coming, suntec city is super crowded nowadays. I have difficulties walking from my workplace to the station. Sometimes it takes 20 min from tower 5 to the station.... faint. I end up going home late.

Working at suntec is not as happening as I think it is afterall. When Aiden drive, he can onli drop me off at Tiong Bahru station on weekdays. I will be super late if he drive me directly to suntec due to the heavy traffic and jam.
Dont tok bout the heavy traffic, tok bout the food, its super expensive. I can never find $2 food there. my average spending is $3.50 - $4 per lunch.
After lunch, there bound to be extra time for shopping. When gals shop, they sure to buy things.
Its better to work at those places far from shopping area.
The clothes we wear to work muz be nice formal wear oso, it means money again. Everything oso money. My bf said I become very stingy nowadays, hmmmm muz save money mah, so cannot blame me. I'm using my money now not his money, I will feel the pinch if i spend too much... haha

GenTinG KL TRiP FroM 26-28 NoV 05

Now then got time to upload some of the pics
We had dim sum for breakfast

My colleague was ask to choose between school and work yest. She has to take no pay leave to attend her day time class which my manager said it will be approved few days ago. She was asked to make the decision within one day and if she choose to take no pay leave for her studies, she will need to write a resignation letter. I feel sorry for her. Actually she make it very clear to the manager that she need to attend class and the manager did say she has valid reason and the leave will be approved.

After transferring to the HQ, life seems difficult for me, I lost my lunch kaki and someone whom I can reallly tok to during working hrs. Life cant be smooth all the time, its time i start to look for another job, this job is not suitable for me. The ppl there make the job stressful and nt the job tt is stressful. No one can be trust there, everyone is putting on a mask while working, i'm super tire of the environment. All I miss is the free expresso, mocha cafe and cuppucino(is the spelling correct) every morning if I choose to leave the company. LOL

I tok to my friend for a fw hrs last nite. Gal(ying)... dun trust ppl too much, we are not them, we dunno wat they are up to. Believe in urself and move on with ur life. Its ur life, onli u can manipulate it, no one can so why bother bout wat other said. Dun feel sad for tt guy who hurt u, he is not worth the effort at all, just a jerk. Stay happy and pretty, forget bout the past wat matter is the future, there bound to be someone out there more suitable for u and will appreciate u. Human being make mistake and we learn from mistake. Meet up some day...

Did I mention bout my first pay? I juz got my first pay yest due to some cock up cos I transfer from side office to HQ, it was few days later but at least I got my pay. I spend them on cny clothes cos I seriously need more working clothes and shoes. I can only wear jeans on sat but i seldom work on sat, so one week 5 daes all office wear. Argghh... I spend $100 on a levis voucher cos my honey torn his levis jeans somemore is at the butt area LOL hohohohoho dunno how he did it, super li hai. Since our anniversary is near, I might well get one for him. haha

Say bye to the nice view ... I was transfer back to the HQ which is at Suntec City Tower 5. I got to get up half an hr earlier everyday as the distance is further and I have to walk 15 mins from the station to reach suntec. Thanks for transferring me back but I hate it.

I'm sad, I'm so lost, I dunno wat to do and I dunno wat I wan. Can't my life be much better than the one I'm having now. What's true and what's not, I really can't differentiate anymore. There are nasty ppl pretending to be nice, and I have to guard her to prevent me from getting stab from my back. What's wrong with the world?

I love my job, I wan to stay long in the organisation but can I stand a person who only gimme 20% of the instruction and left me to make mistake. I 'm new, I need guidance and I can't snatch ur post if u got the substance so dun worry so much bout imparting all ur skills to me.

Not everything is as nice as it look from the outside. Sometimes I really feel like giving it up but I'm not a kid anymore, I have to face all the problem and not threw everything to my mom. The one who stand by me through all the rainstorm is my mom, I dunno wat will happen to me without her by my side. Everytime I complain bout my work, she's the one who encourage me to look for a job I like. My dad will juz say ... work is like tt one lar, muz tolerate... Ok I will cos I cant find a better job with my limited experience.