I CaNt BrEath...

Suddenly my heart feel so heavy and my body so tire... I'm suffocating & dying soon...Everything just come back to me like it use to be. Think I'm falling sick again.
My right eye is red in colour, I dun think is my contact lenses. I feel so weak, I'm going to be down with flu soon. I drag myself to work today, it was raining so heavily. How I wish it's a sat... In JC, I used to play guardian and angel. My guardian angel will drop me a note every week. Although I'm not suppose to find out who my guardian angel is but I find out who tt person is in the end. Is there really a guardian angel in reality who will secretly protect us? If there's, think my angel is just as lazy as me. I always believe that there will be sunshine after a heavy down pour. That was a belief and will never come true in reality. After every down pour I will only see darky cloudy sky and the rain would start to pour fron sky again. I always ask myself what have I done to deserve all the unlucky things and when will there be sunshine for me. I start to lose faith in myself and lost confident in evrything I do. I slow down my pace, waiting for good things to happen on me and not fighting for what I want. Even if I fight, will I get what I want.