I have been going through alot of saddness this week, jobs... family .. love life make me crazy. Quite down with luck these days even mahjong oso loss money. Maybe this is life, we wont be always at the high perk but why muz it happen at the same time.

I went to a fruit stall during one of my lunch time this week. Saw red juicy apples and real big one. Are they as juicy as they look or are they onli look good... I wonder wat will I do if I buy a red juicy apple and realise that there's a worm inside. Some ppl will juz cut away the part where the worm has biten and eat the part that is still good. Some ppl will juz throw away the apple. I'm a weird person, stubborn at times. I will take its flaw and cut away the part that is biten by the worm thinking tt it's still juicy. Another part of me want to throw away the apple for the sake of my health. Wat will happen if I ate the apple? Am I silly to be bother bout apple stuff? Maybe I shld spend more time enjoying life, filling the empty part of my life with interesting stuff.

Mom ask me to chg my image. How to chg? At most onli chg the colour of my hair to a more golden colour but I scare I dun look professional enough. She ask me to dress myself too... maybe too much office wear make me look dull, I shld concentrate on more bright colour office wear instead of those normal executive wear tt everyone is wearing. I shld buy more accessories to match the dresses too and more eye shadow for my face instead of using the normal colour. I'm waiting for my first month salary to come so tt I can buy more clothes for myself and give my mom some pocket money and christmas present for my bf. He wan a X box...

I'm tire I need a break off everything.

Suddenly realise tt my island kiss has chg its smell, juz wondering if it's the place tt I place the perfume tt cos it to chg its quality.