Friends...

From my experience, some people are really not worth to be kept as friends. Be it a lie or real, one yr had almost pass and I've yet to receive my money. It is not about the sum, it small and is only $200. This $200 really shows alot of things, friendship gone. I will open my eye in further in making friends, silent and keep quiet about the money isn't the right attitude. I just feel foolish to fall into the trap, lucky is only S$200.

When I msn/msg you asking when are is she going to return the money to me, she choose not to reply. When she borrow the money from me, I went all the way to look for an UOB ATM when I'm outside shopping inorder to transfer the money to you. This is all I get from you.

I'm not rich, I need money too. I need money for my hse renovation, traditional wedding and honeymood, this $200 is not much but is still my hardearn money. Money I get from staying up late to go thru my company policy and working on reports. Money I dun even wan to spend on myself juz becos my wedding is on the way. I lent them to you and this is what I get when I ask you for it. Close friend tell me that I dun need to get my money back, maybe is true..... I still hope that what I hear from ppl is nt true.....

HaPPY BiRThDaY

HaPPy BiRtHDaY To AiDen

Pre Marriage Symptom

I dunno what's wrong with me, I'm suffering from pre-marriage symptom. I think most of the people regardless of males or females will suffer from this pre-marriage symptom, starting to feel unsure and shaky about my stand. I keep asking myself these questions... Will I be happy? Is he the one? Will he hurt me in future? Will things go well for us? Will we quarrel? Can we commit ourselves? Can I just live with him without my parents by my side? Can I be mature enough to face all the difficulties in front of us? Houseworks, bills, car loan, meals, house loan, insurance....... can we handle ourselves?
Think I'm just a fool asking myself these questions, if i'm uncertain, why are we still together for almost 5 years. He is part of my life and I'm wondering am I part of his life. Marriage life is a uncertain future ahead and I'm sure Aiden feel the uncertainty too.

Raining Sunday

It's a dull and rainy Sunday with only Me and Tinky at home and he is sitting just right below my chair.

I'm supposed to go Seng Kang with Aiden to alter my ring size, it's too tight for me. Thinking of the cool weather, it's so good to laze at home and not doing anything. I still have 2 months to alter the ring and do my shopping. Right now, I'm thinking of what to do with the chalet that we booked on 28 Sept 2007 and how to celebrate Aiden's birthday. I had already given him a great present 2 months ago, i dun have to do any present hunting anymore but I'm afraid he will deny tt the present is meant for his bd and demand another one.... cunning fellow

We have sent our application to ballot for Jurong flat, hopefully we can get a flat and a good quene no too. If we didn't get a flat this time, think we really have to buy resale flat. Time will be wasted on job hunting.

I really cannot imagine that we are planning for our wedding, it's like a dream. 4 years ago, we spent our time in school and shopping at Orchard Road, still considered Teenagers at tt time and right now, we will be pronounced husband and wife in 2 months time at ROM office. I dun remember how much quarrels we had and how many times I use the words "let's end this relationship". Countless of patch and break till we decided to tie the knot. Countless of walk off too........

Yest we went Ikea at Queensway to buy some kitchen utensils for our future home. Although we haven even cfm whether there will be flat available, we just buy the stuffs to prepare first. We dun want to burden ourselves with kitchen's shopping when our flat comes. We saw a couple quarrelling at the cross road junction and the gal walked off without the guy. The guy also walked off in another direction but turn back to chase the girl after 2 mins, but the traffic lights turn to red man at tt point of time. After that we saw the guy searching for the gal at Queensway shopping centre. If wanna search for the gal muz well follow the gal initially when she walked off, what for turn the other direction and walk off ( serve the guy right). Aiden will only chase me during the 1st yr in our relationship after first yr, he oso hack care le.... haha
Now I no longer walk off cos I dun carry my Ezlink card around.... haha

Updates

I have worked for my current company for 2 months already, I still cannot get use to the system here. The person who are supposed to handover to me is not doing a good job at all. She is giving me bits and pieces of the picture and expect me to piece everything back myself. The colleagues here are unfriendly at all, if is not for the money, I already left this company long ago. I always have no luck in finding good job.

Women who are getting married should be very xin fu but I feel nothing at all. It's only preparation for ROM only and I'm already so stress up. I have not found any bridal shop that can customise my ROM dress and I have not secure a date for ROM also, hope we can get the date we want. Flat hunting was also very tiring, we took half day leave going to HDB ending up having no flat at all. Those that we want are fully booked and those leftover one are low level. We have no luck in finding 5rms flat and end up looking for executive one instead. It's more expensive and hope less people will want executive flat. Hope this coming Oct selective will be a better one with more flats of good location in Jurong.

I CaNt BrEath...

Suddenly my heart feel so heavy and my body so tire... I'm suffocating & dying soon...Everything just come back to me like it use to be. Think I'm falling sick again.
My right eye is red in colour, I dun think is my contact lenses. I feel so weak, I'm going to be down with flu soon. I drag myself to work today, it was raining so heavily. How I wish it's a sat... In JC, I used to play guardian and angel. My guardian angel will drop me a note every week. Although I'm not suppose to find out who my guardian angel is but I find out who tt person is in the end. Is there really a guardian angel in reality who will secretly protect us? If there's, think my angel is just as lazy as me. I always believe that there will be sunshine after a heavy down pour. That was a belief and will never come true in reality. After every down pour I will only see darky cloudy sky and the rain would start to pour fron sky again. I always ask myself what have I done to deserve all the unlucky things and when will there be sunshine for me. I start to lose faith in myself and lost confident in evrything I do. I slow down my pace, waiting for good things to happen on me and not fighting for what I want. Even if I fight, will I get what I want.

In camp Training

Aiden needs to attend in camp training for this week and I'm left alone. There' good and bad, good is I got more freedom and bad is no driver to fetch me home from work.
I just requested my GST rebate package to be credited into my bank account. It's only $200, better than nothing but think I will be paying more than $200 for GST after the 2% increment. Think I must write a list of what I wanna get before GST increase.